Dear D,

I know that the last few months, in fact the last few years have been hard for you. You’ve left behind the old familiar ways, and sometimes you wonder if you’ll ever find that comfortable place again. You’ve often asked – why can’t I have that. You probably feel that life has knocked you around and not been fair to you. Maybe you are right – perhaps life hasn’t been entirely fair to you. But look around you – you are the chosen few – the blessed and the fortunate – for you are loved and taken care of. Remember that day, almost 3 years ago, when you were alone and desperate and you thought that you wouldn’t survive another week. But it worked out, didn’t it. It happened again last year, and yet again it worked out. So trust me. It will work out.

And seriously, you know that it is futile and stupid to worry about things that you have no control over – so why bother. I know, I know – you are only human and at times you cannot help but worry. But don’t sink into that quite feeling of fear and pain. Don’t let it hold you down; don’t let it keep you awake at night. You need to close your eyes, let go and dream. After all, you’ve always been a dreamer. As a little girl, you would drift away in the middle of the class – your teacher thought you were too absentminded and hit you on your palms with a wooden ruler. You cried but you didn’t stop dreaming. You graduated from school with the nickname Alice in Wonderland. Some people laughed but you didn’t care. So why are you now so afraid to dream?

I know that you have this irrational fear that if you dream something, it will not happen. While part of growing up is the realization that life is not what we cracked it up to be and all our dreams don’t necessarily come true, that shouldn’t stop you from being who you are and living the life you want to live. You’ve come this far – you’ve done some stupid things, some amazing things – but you’ve been there and done that. And that’s what counts. And who knows, you dreams might come true. There is an infinite wisdom in this world. At times, it may not be apparent to you, but it is there. So keep the faith.

Love always,
O